Tuesday, April 10, 2012

a little insight

i'm feeling really down and comparing myself to others. other people have so much potential. i'm thinkin of one girl in particular from my acting class. she's got the most perfect look to be a star -- eyes, teeth, hair, features---, the right experience, resume, area of expertise, and connections. I don't.

i'm sitting here wondering what the freak is wrong with me? not because i am not as settled as this one girl, but because i feel like i'm inadequate which i know logically im not. i get to thinkin, why is it that right now, i have no hope or ambition? and i realize, it's because i need to sleep.

little sleep does you know good. you become tired on life, and it becomes hard to see yourself as anything but weak and tired. so i am going to take a power nap and revitalize. cuz right now, gotta say i don't feel like being an actor. AND THAT IS SO WRONG.

2 comments:

  1. haha I love how you flipped the switch on that one. In my novel I have a demon who specializes in "lethargy" and depresses his victims by making everything a big deal when they have little sleep. Having good sleep makes your body healthy and when that is healthy then your emotional and spiritual state has a way better chance at happiness. You inspire me to get more/better sleep. And onto our dreams!

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  2. oooh and look what I stumbled upon:
    http://rhettandlink.com/blog/how-to-sleep-more-and-do-less/

    which led me to research this:
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Polyphasic_sleep

    I think I'll try Biphasic (90 minute nap), I'll let you know how it works for me in 10 days.

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